“How does a moment last forever?” (22nd September, 2021) seems today, however, it can never be, because no passing moment lasts forever. Live it forever instead.
“I miss you”, regardless. The “attention” I never valued yesterday, haunts my soul today. I’m obsessed with a friend. You’re all over me. My weakness and my obsession.
This is a rare situation of unlike-poles attract. I think we’re better off as like-poles, because we reflect, nothing seems to bind us.
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We may have not been the best of friends but we were well off when it mattered most.
I still “remember the time” of our first call, it lasted for an hour and forty-two (01:42:00) minutes, on October 27th, yeah. I still remember.
That wasn’t all, you used to “call on me” whenever you felt “lonely” and was chased out of your bed by “wild dreams”.
I chose your “mind over body” when you needed to realize your dreams.
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In spite of this, you lured me to fall for your “bed of lies”. You changed me, and now, I have a “fight song” on my lips, whilst I’m not a “soja”.
You are the best thing to have happened to me, a blessing I never strived for. An ambitious “demigod” full of great potentials.
A “beautifully” endowed mindset inside out, destined for “something” beyond one’s “vision”.
It was an honour of joining your force, “going down fighting” every challenge just to realize your dreams.
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Through the “thick and thin” times, I was there with you. So why now?
I just “can’t let you go”. Through your “pains”, I didn’t “think twice” but to prioritize your needs.
November is a month you wouldn’t want to revisit because of how “bad and rude” it was to your emotions, but on my side, full of fulfilling moments.
It was “the first time ever I saw your face”, haven returned from my village after visiting the first time in ten (10) years. My soul rejoiced.
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I saw you through the very last day of the year, when you were full of smiles and was chasing your dreams, living life as if you had just a day to realize everything.
What happened afterwards? Was the new year a bad omen for “us” to live?
You intermitted your calls and texts.
I’m full of your thoughts, you’re “always on my mind” which I can’t put a stop to.
Every passing moment of my life has a piece of you to deal with.
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“Memories” bring back you. Good moments, however, I’m filled with tears and bitterness. I wish we never had a chat that fateful day.
A year on; you keep on smiling just as I hoped for, but this time, without me.
Deleting your number, blocking you and faking life “without you” couldn’t curb my obsession.
I’m always on my phone expecting your call or text, but none. I go online just to check up on your new status updates. A citizen now a spectator.
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I’m not “jealous” of the moments you live without me, I know it’s the “end of time” for us.
As it’s said, “sadly enough, the most painful goodbyes are the ones that are left unsaid and never unexplained…”.
I know “goodbye’s the saddest word” but I’m ready to take this pill.
Serve me honourably, as I deserve.
It’s your turn now to “heal” me from this emotional trauma I once healed you from. Even if I deserved it then, “please forgive me” now.
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My “fragile heart” weary, just put an end to this relation since you are “no more” on board of my ship.
“Angela”, save the last “lifeline” I’ve got left. I’m not promised of “another life” to bet on this one.
“I love you” is the weapon which left the deadliest scar in my heart.
Nevertheless, I still can’t get you off head.
I heard you’ve found a “better man” who is going “to love you more”, please, use this medium to free me up, I’m obsessed wholly.
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You should know, I can’t “love someone” else the same way I did on your part, “selflessness”, because I wanted to protect your interests on a “selfish” note.
I broke my own rules along the line, just to “wash the tears” off your eyes. I had no ill-thoughts.
It’s “obvious” my obsession is going to last longer because we both know I never wronged you and you never want to see me go, but my “feelings” hurt.
We were friends then but we’re not “friends today”.
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Be appreciative enough if I was an angel then. What I ask of you is to let the devil in me find a resting place to “focus” on my goals.
You bought my time, and left me with restlessness. You exchanged my “attention” with endless thoughts of “you”, writing all these pieces for you.
My leniency has become a weakness. You rekindled my spirit with “hope” of a promising future but now, tears follow every smile.
The world should know, this day, I’m so much Obsessed with a Friend.
The End.
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